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@ 9:49 PM

firstly, tomorrow will be Hari Raye. oky, so Selamat Hari Raye to all.

and by the way kn, i owned three so-called diaries already. one is my private blog, this blog and another is the normal diary inside my room. so, three. trust me, all three diaries will sure contains something about him. haha.

let me tell something here oky. now not only mum alone knew about my couple kebaye. but in fact, dad and kakak also found out about it already! then right, paham-paham jer la eh what they will sey. "nie mesti da partner dengan lelaki kan." "kalau ade orang datang nk minang, cemane eh." haha! ape yg cemane lagi? let me get married lor! haha. miang nak mampos sak.

aiya. will be having history N-level on second day of hari raye. how, how, how? luckily the subject oky-oky. if maths, can die sey.

today post very short! and, private blog updated! (:

@ 10:50 PM

the only way to keep me awake while waiting for bf to get home is by using this computer. ive been doing quite a few things sey from just now. download themes la, blogshopping la, eat la, this and that la. if i'm in my room right now, i think i going to dreamland already. but today must keep my promise to wait for him. ((: if not, when else can get the chance to talk on the phone right.

just now in my room, i tried the raye outfit which i bought yesterday. same same with bf. then mummy knock on the door. wrong timing sey! i did not have the time to change.

so, mummy saw it la. actually she don't know that i bought it. then she like nagging abit la just now. macam dah tahu jer tau, because she said that i already have two outfit, why must buy another one. comfirm pair with a guy already. hehe. of course la i denied. nak mampos if i tell her the truth.

i owned a private blog now. ((:

@ 4:58 PM

like as if i will delete you from my top priorities list. i won't unless you decide to leave me someday! haha.

very random starting, for my very beloved husband who thinks that i might delete him from the list. i might but i won't. eventhough i said that i will la. saje nak sakitkan hati die. haha.

anyway, im halfway through the N-level examination already. the grade don't know how la. like getting worse only each year. if i cannot get to be real nurse and work at the hospital, then be the fake fake one also can. or be the cleaner at the hospital. choychoychoy!! haha.

@ 8:30 PM

in my sixteen years of living, i've met two dumb idiotic brainless plus desperate guy. such jerk won't get to enjoy life to the fullest. but to these two asshole, i believes that what goes around comes around.

anyway, im grateful that i still have people like the one under my top priorities who understands my situation very well. love korang so much!

@ 7:25 PM

this is a new post.

i deleted the previous one already. eventhough im still angry a bit. but never mind la. forget it more better.

oky, let me tell about something that happened today.

first sekali, something happened in the afternoon. which made me really frustrated sey. but never mind about that. since i felt bad for spoiling his birthday, i tried to think of a way la.

around six plus, i prepared the present for him. actually left with the card only. hm, inside the card i wrote this :

some things are left undone
some things are left unsaid
some feelings are left unexpressed
but someone as special as you,
could never be left unwished.

happy birthday dear! (:

oky or not? but, still got some things im unhappy about. firstly, the pen that i used are the ones with a lot of ink. so got smudge a bit la. somemore i drew lines on it so that i could write straight. but in the end, i could not erase it off because later the smudge will become more worse.

then on top of the card, got the phrase "happy birthday dear! (:" again. decided to erase that, because my handwritting like taik babi. but later if i liquid, it will make things more worse. so biarkan aje la. then the last thing is that, the card look girlish a bit la. but i don't care. i only care about the message on the card, which wrote :

if i've told you once, i've told you a million times.
i love you.

oky gtg. byebye.

@ 5:52 AM

only people like you would go around spreading rumours about me. aiseyman. after one problem, now another. i thought only girls would do things like this, but the guy also same. (only some. terase kau nye pasal.)

but afterall, still got one person who stayed true. (beside ifdis darlings.) don't know how he tolerate with me also. everytime sure got problem. if i become him, long time i asked for break already. haha. aiya, see see. now i regret getting suspicious over small thing. later end up fighting. bodoh la. i so many time make his blood boil like how i cekik darah fadhilah hari-hari, still he acted like all the fights never took place before.

oky wait ar. let me do a bit of puji-puji first. don't read if not interested.

last night right, he told me he wash his hands off me already. very sad la when i read that message. like want to cry airmata darah also have. (so DRAMA-MAMA. can be fadhilah's dramaprincess already.) then i said okylor, but i talked shit first. but i don't blame him because right, if i in his shoes also i said the same thing already. or even worse. i think i would said things like "you can go and die." haha.

but then right, he suddenly said he can't bear to watch me suffer alone. "i will be by your side no matter what happens." haha. suddenly i felt like im the luckiest girl in the world. really feel protected you know.

oky da. tak boleh puji banyak-banyak. (like i talked about myself more than puji him.haha.)if the birthday boy to-be kembang nanti, susah. haha. happy birthday in advance to the belo boyfriend. i told him that if i wear the high heels, later i same height with him already. then he said no, because i short! hmpfft! u pun not that tinggi sak! haha.



nice or not the moon? look like sun a bit. but its the moon la.

@ 8:28 PM






































today, went out with ifdis darlings. except that amalina could not follow us, because she got prelim exam in the morning. so, only the four of us went to geylang. actually they wanted to searh for baju kebaye/kurung, but they did not get much time because i was in a rush. sorry eh. haha. then around 6 plus, i went home with daniaty. fadhilah and shikin break their fast outside. so sad, we could not join.

da penat jalan, then we decided to go city plaza. the three of them ( fadhilah, shikin and daniaty) had their hair done. as in, they do the hair extension thing. pink and orange. very nice. i decided to do, but next time. must wait until i trim my hair first. then we walked around to search for my things. after that, the two of us rush-rush went back. reach home around 7plus.

anyway, the aunty at the shop which i bought my high heels is super friendly. (not like the lady which i bought my bag from her shop. hmpfft.) the aunty recommended me this one high heels. okyla, quite nice. got butterfly pattern on it. her way of convincing me to buy all like lame-but-funny type.

she said "wear this got butterfly, later you also can fly". haha. ape jer la. she even said, "ya oky, this one not so high. wear this also you still can run. no problem." kekek sak this aunty.then she told me when i grow up and decided to get married, buy the high heels from her shop. somemore my mother said, "kau beli kasut untuk raye ke untuk kahwin nie?". then i said both la. later when i grow up already, this high heels would still fit on me. so budjet eh, want to get married must wear the same high heels i wear when im 16 years old. haha.

we saw one baju kebaye somewhere in geylang. very nice. we planned to buy it together, its $75 la. don't know oky or not. but really, very nice. got grey colour somemore. (:!

@ 1:12 AM







our adorable hamster feat irni and the emo guy. he busy emo-ing so i need to replace his face with the cute smiley face so that the picture will turn out cheerful. (contoh-contoh mataer biadap. haha.)

yesterday after physic exam, which i did badly in, ifdis darlings went to so-called "visit" the hamster. semakin lame aku tak jumpe die, semakin obese. i wondered what fadhilah feeds her. and the good news was that, her eyes are now 100% cured. just that one side is bigger than the other. but still okyla.

at this moment, my life is cb-ly mendak. eventhough im blogging, still the boredom is killing me. nas prepaid already low, means no more messaging or contacting or anything that's related to it la. yesterday 2nd month anniversary was much more better than the first. haha. that's what i felt la.

we talked about alot of stuffs. of course i don't remember all la, but atleast remember a bit oky right? i told him about my dream house. dengan penuh semangatnye aku keluarkan pen and paper, and roughly draw what's in my dream. if my memory can still be trusted, i think he said its going to come true one day. is it? (wide smile) but i reminded him before hand, "tapi ni semue pakai duit u sorang." good or not my idea? haha.

i think that's all. nothing more to talk about. see you in my next post. byebye.

@ 12:09 AM

wow. so long already, got to start updating.

many things happened for the past one week. most good, most bad. but who cares about the bad things. except for one, but lets just keep it a secret oky. only me and nas knows it. but i bet he don't even know what im refering to. (die kan memang) haha.

anyway, today's date is 12 September 2008. right? hehe. okyla, lets be straightforward. HAPPY 2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, lao kong. ni de lao po wish ni already oky. from just now after break-fasting until now at 12.39am messaging with him. but not even a wish from him. i already said, die ni memang! hmpfft.

this kembar goreng eh, lagi satu tau. memang nak kene dengan aku. "kau tak nak kau nye pasal la." haha. she told me to update fast-fast, then i type like one mad women already. then she told me she wants to offline. she never cekik my darah one day never sah. haha.

ohh ya! i remembered that i have not mention it here before. oky, now i say. during the school holidays which will be coming in few months time, we (shikin, fadhilah, me) will be going to Genting Highlands. we sure going to gossip about alot of things since the three of us will be sleeping in the same room. i bet we won't even sleep. i already told them, "aku atas katil berbual kat phone. korang due tido toilet." haha. who agrees with my cadangan?

oky. erm, actually i got nothing more to say. but suddenly, i remembered something. buat aku bingit ajer! not only me, but fadhilah too. im sure if the rest of ifdis darlings found out about this, comfirm they also feel the same way. aiya, okyla. don't want to spoil my mood on my anniversary. bye-bye!

@ 11:55 PM









only four pathetic pictures. not fair right? go fadhilah's blog and see how many thousands of pictures she have there. really make my blood boil. haha. actually because i came late. supposedly we all meet at 3.00pm. but then i met them at 5pm. so i miss all the miang-miang photoshot lor.

since there's still alot of time before 7+pm (which is the time for us to break our fast), so ifdis darlings decided to go arcade. then we saw a neoprint machine and decided to take our miang-miang shot. atleast i get to take my miang shot jugak, okyla tu. the neoprint is now with daniaty aka mrs ATP. then shikin bought the tapz card and we play this one game. not sure what the name is, but i swear we made alot of noise there.

then tak perasan, its already 6 plus. so we went to banquet, waited and talked first before ordering our food at 6.50pm. just nice, all of us sit only teros bang. good tak timing aku, ifdis? haha. then its almost 8 when all of us finish eating. the last one to finish was of course, me and fadhilah. forever kembar. "laki kau, laki aku. laki aku laki kau jugak". haha. don't know why the hell we came up with this sentence.

then as planned, all of us go and have our "pencuci mulut" at scoopz. each of us choose our own flavour. mine was horlicks. then, fahdilah discovered there's TEH SUSU flavour. since amalina love someone which we gave him the nick ICE TEA or SUSU TETEK right, so she bought that flavour. boleh tahan sedap ar, tak sia-sia kau suke lelaki tu ina. haha. but if got pineapple flavour, i already bought it. eventhough if its not nice. (macam paham jer aku)

then next thing is, me and fadhilah bought a badge with alphabet on it. i bought the letter "I" and "N". sweet or not? eventhough im with ifdis, im still thinking of him oky. (thats why i bought the letter "N") and eventhough im with him, im still thinking of ifdis oky. both also my top priorities. ((:

and one more last thing before i go off, hope my plan next week will work. 2months anniversary and my husband birthday coming real sooooon, hope we will have the best day of our life together.

oky bye.

@ 12:19 PM

hello. currently bored la. will be meeting ifdis in a few hours time. yeay, really can't wait to meet my gossip partners. but we don't just gossip 24 hours oky. maybe we will be breaking fast together too. talking about this, i miss ifdis number two, or also known as ifdis baby la. the cute cute hamster that we found, remember? haha.

ohh ya. will be meeting ifdis in a few hours time, but meeting nas in one week time. very long hor. now one week never meet already. then must wait for another one more week. two weeks in total. really can die. never mind, now teenage must endure. later grow big can get married already and see everyday. (my cite-cite very far hor)

anyway, nas teach me how to see if the hamster is a female or male. because he used to have two of it before. maybe later going to see the hamster and checked. jadi, that will make it easier for us because we don't have to bring the hamster all the way from fadhilah's house to Jurong Point to check its gender. i really can't wait sey. (sekali aku da semangat-semangat check, die bilang tu die main-main jer eh.) -.-if really kan, u memang mintak kene tolak dari tingkat 12 sey. haha. (like as if i have the heart to do it)

okyla. today post quite short. update again at night. bye everyone!

@ 11:04 PM

let me tell the truth oky. before the situation gets out of hand.

there's really nothing going on between me and him. kite cume kawan je, but we became closer because he needed someone to talk to. since he shared it with me, i just lend a listening ear. anyway, this happened after he already broke up. so it means that i have no intention to take him away from you or whatsoever la. just for you to know, he told me that he still loves you and can't forget you even after what happened. tak salah kan i listen to that and give him my words of motivation? but if it is, then í'm sorry la.

oky then next. since you two are like now back together, im happy for both of you. seriously, i got no intention to snatch him from you or be a third party. instead, my intention was just to help him out. and about the birthday gift, i'm sorry if it made you feel suspicious or anything. but its just a gift as a friend and nothing more. oky? sorry for all the misunderstanding.

so, i've done my part as a friend and listened to his problems when he needed it. but now, i promise i won't interfere with his affair anymore since he already got you.i don't wish to be involved in anything anymore either because i have my own relationship problems to think about. i love my boyfriend very much and jadi, there's no need to have anymore doubt about me and him. its all in the past. and lastly, hope you guys last long oky. i really had no bad intentions.

better be going now. goodnight everyone!

*i really hate it when things like this happened between me and nas. all because of one small thing that happens. fuck ley, chaochibai.

@ 9:21 PM

*satu satu perangai macam chibeh.

first of all,
congratulations to i.f.d.i.s for our new born baby boy/girl. (=

oky, the good thing about today was that ifdis got a new member joing us. it's a super cute hamster, but just that the left eye like got something wrong. intended to sent it to the vet la, but banyak duet kite.

i felt happy and tired at the same time. happy because of the hamster, and tired because we walked for such a long distance. from school to Jurong Point then to Gek Poh. thats when we found the hamster. we decided to put it at fahdilah's house, then walked all the way to my house to take a bigger cage and the wood-wood thing. then we walked to Jurong Point again to buy the bathing sand and the so-called "bathtub". then walked back to fadhilah's house to give the hamster a better living environment.

and the cool thing was that, the hamster has five mothers. i'm the forth mother out of all five. but the question was that, who's going to be the father? haha. lame siol. anyway, glad to know that its safe and sound at my kembar goreng house. she told me that the hamster same like its 2nd and 4th mother (fadhilah and me), 24 hours sleeping. like mother, like hamster. haha.

ohh ya, i don't know why but i suddenly felt like saying it.
"i.f.d.i.s, i love you all very much!! as much as i love our baby oky" (sounds so lesbian-ish.haha.)its not a lesbian thing oky, its called true friendship.(:

its been one week already.): soon enough, it will turn two weeks. and, yeeah!! finally! phew. after so much endurance.

last but not least, our baby photos.

@ 8:16 PM

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, ALFIAN!
now, i'll let the pictures do the talking oky.







































today was alfian's birthday.so halfway through our studying, me and my two other darlings (fadhilah and shikin) went to Jurong Point to find him a birthday present. we searched everywhere for a birthday cake, a small one, but could not find.so we bought him four cookies from Famous Amos.i really felt bad.because right,he bought for me a Minnie Mouse soft toy.but i only bought for him a cookie.but ashikin told me its the thought that counts.(:

after that went to sit around at the study corner near shikin's block.oh ya,i told them to play a song and sing along.okyla,i guessed thats all for today.

anyway, i missed boyfriend badly. wonder what he's doing now. did not reply to my messages. pineapple betol lar die. pegi sembahyang terawih or playing soccer, what you guys think?i don't know. no more night talks for four days straight, due to the N levels the next morning. arrghh! suffer now, enjoy later.

so, here's the video that i took just now.
[ hmpfft.reply pun this pineapple.(: ]