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@ 7:52 PM



one of the picture taken yesterday. ^.^ i don't like the flash sey. make me look a bit whiter like chinesepontianak. hmm. so-called "resting" inside my sister's car. amek air-con nye pasal, tengah bahang giler inside the chalet. hmm. did nothing much also. just messaged with someone=D all the way until balik, then sleep. Zzzzz..

a lot of homeworks to be completed so im going to start doing now. :| hmm.

@ 1:59 PM

fine. im speechless. do what you think is right k.

@ 5:10 PM



i did this quiz at facebook. like cool sey. haha. recommended by Daniaty. too small ar the pic. wait i rewrite what it says, k. the quiz is called ""what kind of girlfriend/boyfriend will you end up with"? hehs.

you're going to end up with a really sexy bf/gf. :) (wth) haha.
YOU JUST HAVE TO GO AFTER WHAT YOU WANT. AND IF IT DOESN'T WANT YOU BACK, THEN SO BE IT. IT DOESN'T DESERVE YOU ANYWAYS. -nicole richie

o.O who's my next boyfriend ar? will he really be sexy? omgg. haha. i can't imagine ______ (IF he is my next boyfriend, maybe in ten years time? aku kan suke berangan! lol.) being sexyy.

hahahaha. siak ar. the sentence "you just have to go after what you want" really reflects on me ALOT sey. macam tahu-tahu jer kan? LOL. hmm.. dengki. & if you all realised, there's no more ASM&S up there. huhu. ^.^

IRNI HERNANI MANAGED TO MOVE ON WITH LIFE, FINALLY. phew.

@ 7:47 PM

APA INI?! AIYO.

sedih, tak sedih, tak sedih, sedih, sedih, sedih, tak sedih, SEDIH! )': like want to cry sey. and today date is 23 March. khekhe. fast sak, da exactly 1 Month Anniversary. bukan ape, exactly 1 month since i like him back. haha. Zzzz..




Thank God I found you
I was lost lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful i found you

if only we're still like last time. haish. things changed. i miss you (very badly). ):

FORGET HIM! must, must, must! grrr. can become sot sey like that. hmm.. takot ar nak msg die dulu. :|



TSB FT. IFDIS. (:

@ 9:58 PM



Aku tak percaya lagi,
Dengan apa yang kau beri.
Aku terdampar di sini,
Tersudut menunggu mati.

Aku tak percaya lagi,
Akan guna matahari.
Yang dulu mampu terangi,
Sudut gelap hati ini.

lyrics played a big part when nothing else could be used to describe how im feeling.

& i swear, i won't believe a single thing you would say to me in the future. i won't, i won't, i won't! fullstop. hope i don't contradict what i just said. huhu. it takes alot of effort forgetting someone. Zzzz.. and i don't care.

ohh yes!



Sharul Rafizi is sooooo sweet, agree? khekhe. met him at 11pm just now, since he finished work at 10plus. he went under my block, just to pass me this. despite feeling tired after a long day of work. awww. Aul, aku cair beb! haha. will be accompanying him for his lunch break tomorrow. Burger King oky? oky set. see you tomorrow!

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE! IM SLOWLY FORGETTING MUHAMMAD _________! nyahahahahaha.

@ 11:02 AM

will be going out later for studying session. hope by doing something, i could keep my mind off Muhammad _________. atleast for half a day pun jadi la. he's been on my mind all this while since 23 FEB 2009, fcuk you. :|

it gets harder each time i tried not to think of you.



huhu. ^.^

@ 7:03 PM

i've made the most silliest decision ever. maybe? haish. *dissapointed*

and guessed what, i just betrayed the most wonderful person that had entered my life ever. im such an ass. )': irni is sorry but she will still love him, as always. sobx. & you're the reason im looking forward to go to school each day.

bleargh! ignore the previous paragraph. omgg, later people get the wrong idea? huhu. tu korang punye pasal. for the people that knows what is happening lately, you will think its for ______ kan? hmm. i've got nothing else to say. even if i say its not for him, would people believe me? no point explaining.

alamakss.

150309. grrr, what is happening? i swear i shall never forget this date. the day where i held your hand, and you squeezed mine tighter. zzzz.. good things don't last for long. where am i to find another guy just like you. ): sometimes, we just had to let go even if its hard to do so. iloveyou.

chett! why should i be so sad? NO USE! seriously sey. i don't love him anymore, tak gune sedih-sedih! (so the opposite)

i may not get to see you as often as i like.
i may not get to hold you in my arms all thru the night.
but deep in my heart i truly know,
you're the one that i love,
& i can't let you go. <33

@ 12:27 AM




Camelia - Irwansyah

aww, its been two fucking days. he still hasn't msg me. what is happening? Monday was excused, but today? )':

by the way, i ate two Mashed Potato today. hope it could help me gain some weight. o.O will it work? hmm. and in case you don't realise, my right eye looks smaller and sort of swollen. previous picture, my left eye looks smaller. kenape eh?

they don't know what we've been through, they don't know about me and you.

_|_ (fuck)

@ 7:49 PM



omgg, is this love? my heart beats faster when i saw his name under the who's viewed me. grrr.

im still missing you. :| you once sent me this, "u msg2 i je, i da cukup happy." aww, it really flatters me.

i always had stomachache everytime i ate something, which caused me to shit every now and then. is that the reason why people kept saying im becoming more and more thinner? cos at last, the food doesn't really stay in my stomach. how to grow fat like that? mum is aware of this, and she's bringing me to the doctor. is this something normal? some people even thought im having eating disorder. whatthehell. why should i dig my throat just to get the food out again? best of all, Aul thought i took slimming pills. khekhekhe.

and to make things worse, i discovered a blue black mark on my left leg. whats that? ):

Two butterflies were in love.
One day, they decided to play hide n seek.
They fixed a flower and decided that tomorrow,
one who will come first, and sit on this flower
will love the other more.
At morning, the male butterfly came very early
and waited for the flower to open.
He was shocked to see that the female butterfly
had died inside. Its because she was waiting since
last night to tell him how much she love him.

& im that female butterfly. (; khekhekhe.

@ 1:34 AM

chatting session with this guy below at 12plus midnight. huhu.







weird la sey. we fight about something that happened 2 years back. wth. haha. tk pasal2 name Ina pun terbabit. haha. i realised that i keep updating my blog every now and then. khekhekhe. sot sey.

@ 7:44 PM

this morning, i went out as early as 10.30am. before bathing, i charged my handphone because the battery is pathetically low already. then i on the switch to iron my pants. eventhough i already spent about 5 minutes ironing, my pants still very crumpled. biadap kan? thats when i realised that there's a power trip. sakit hati oi. so i just grab any shirt and jeans that no need to be iron. then my handphone battery, lagi sakit hati. cume 5 bar aje! suey kn? Zzzzz..

then i quickly went out, took Bus 99 to Jurong Polyclinic. alone somemore. then when i reached right, like got someone familiar ar. hahaha. its Azhar la sey. then i tegur him la. but before that, i slapped his shoulder damn hard. thats what he said ar. actually i meant to tap gently only. haha. then wait, and wait, and wait. quite long. but nasib baik ade orang teman. khekhekhe. he also accompanying his friend/cousin. entah la eh.

then mine finished much earlier than his friend/cousin. when im on the way to take my medicine, saw him again near the staircase. then he accompany me to take my medicine. bla bla bla, his friend still haven't see the doctor yet. then, we went to sit under the void deck behind the Polyclinic. weee~ have a catch up session. a lot of stories sey i share. not that a lot ar, but quite. haha.

THANKS FOR THE LISTENING EAR AND ADVICE. =D AND THANKS FOR SLAPPING MY LEFT SHOULDER BACK! WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND PE? HAHA.

but seriously sey, there's a lot of things that we talked about. mostly about relationships ar. khekhekhe. i'll remember your advice oky aPEK?! haha. "learn to be strong no matter what". yeay, im trying to be strong! and about the EGO part that he talked about right, quite true ar. haish.

eh, panjang umur. si apek nie baru online. haha. tsk tsk tsk. macam tahu-tahu jer! ohh ya, quite sad. cannot follow him to Johor just now. isi minyak, vroom vroomm! kalau tak, boleh suruh orang tu belanje makan ke eh? chey, fake! haha.

then, received a message from someone. which i don't know wether i should state who it is or not. "Wah, you really love ______ alot. Im so jealous, i don't get this kind of love in the past. I don't know what you got into ______. But i see you really love him." (and this person is obviously not Azhar LOR. he can say it when we were talking under the void deck what, why must message right? hahaha.)

why is it that everyone can see how much i love you, except you yourself?

@ 8:50 AM











I LOVE IFDIS! khekhekhe ..

i saw this phrase, "i love her more than jacket do; LAMO", at Daniaty's blog. hahaha.

therefore, i hereby declare that i, too -

LOVE INA MORE THAN SUSU TETEK DO;
LOVE FADH MORE THAN JAMES DO;
LOVE DANIATY MORE THAN PET DO;
LOVE MYSELF MORE THAN JACKET DO;
& LOVE SHIKIN MORE THAN DD DO!
<33

p/s: all the guys name were their nicknames given by us. =D kite kan tkd keje!

@ 10:30 PM



i don't know why, but the icon above seems sooo true. except that it's not every guy ar. instead it should be "everybody", and "what's so good about him" instead of what does he have that i don't. ya, why ar? love is blind is it? Zzzzz...

I can't wait till its officially us,
I can't wait to let them know about us.
Please don't say you wanna give up,
How do I tell him that im falling in love.
And im waiting patiently for that day,
When we no longer have to lie about us.

)': sobx. i don't want this to go on, seriously sey. i hate all the lying and stuffs. how long do we have to lie about us? why can't we just start telling the truth? how long is your "till the right time comes". aku confused la sey. why, why, why? ): "and im waiting patiently for that day, when we no longer have to lie about us". i love you.

i soooo HATE school holidays. how to see you again? ):

I LOVE ASM&S BLOODY HELL ALOT! <3

@ 8:14 PM




LYRICS

you were there to light my day
you were there to guide me through
when my day is down and out
i'll never stop thinking of you

how can i forget all that
when you're the one who make me smile
you'll always be a part of me
how i wish you were still mine

never will forget the day
how we've met and came this far
we both know we got this feeling
but somehow it has to end up here

i know its me who said goodbye
and thats the hardest thing to do
coz you mean so much to me
and thats the truth from me to you

for all the things i've done and said
for all the hurt that i've cause you
i hope you will forgive me baby
coz that wasn't what i meant to do

@ 8:57 PM

waiting for the day till we no longer have to lie about us.

cross country was over, finally sey. tapi die punye penat, i don't know how to say la. i get the 69th position. sedih kn, chet! CTkus position was 58th. cool kan? she's the fastest among our 'gang' sak. haha. hmm.. blablabla. B girls starts first before the B boys. eh, Ina said to me right, "kalau kau lari lambat, die lari cepat, nanti boleh terjumpe." khekhekhe.

before cross country, IFDIS met up at Fadhilah's house. guess what, at 5AM! pecaye tak, we woke up that early. which means, i woke up at 4AM. in the end, i managed to sleep for a while during the prize giving ceremony. i faced down, covered my face with my hands and sleep. boleh eh gitu. da ngantok giler babi oii.

tomorrow will be homework day. grr, homework homework homework. must complete all my unfinished worksheets. then Sunday project work. then da. haha.

eh, my tagboard. the 'kawan baek kau' and 's______' right, i know who already la sey! orang tu kan, memang sengaje nak buat aku suspend. konon, haha. i know the way he spelled the 'gyler', one of a kind punye. haha. nah, you all read this. "a'ah. nak step s_____ je actually tadi. wahaha. haish, mendak uh. da tkd sape nak mcg dgn aku lagi. lain la org tu, ade s_____. kacau STEAM je! lol!" what the hell kan nie budak? memang mintak kene kn, kn, kn? haha.

irni: hahaha. heart attack konon! abeh ade org tu lgi ltk name s_____. lagi suspend oii! dag dug dag dug tau jantung i! hahaha. ke perr?

ASEAN'S EHEM2: Betol. suspend !lol. haiyer, s______ boleh letak bnyk name sey. syafiq, syawal, sewel, siao, selenge, slumber, STEAM, selamat, salmah, salmeah, salman, salam, samad, salomah, salim, syahid, syahidah.

haha. tkd keje.

as i sit with little to do,
my mind is filled with thoughts of you.
as i work hard throughout the day,
i miss your smile thats miles away.
as i lay down and tried to sleep,
its memories of you i always keep.
you must know this, my love so true,
i spend all my time loving you. <3

ASM&S.

@ 6:35 PM

weee~ i just bought a new shirt, online. tak sabar nak dapat ar. haha. sooo cool. & i vowed to save $10 each week, oky tk? haha. jangan harap! muke aku simpan duet? like _____ said, pigs can fly sia. haha, really sak.

next week, which is equivalent to 9 days from now, is already the 12 of March. right right? which means, the final day for our SEL project. haha. semangat siak. the project is actually about some video things. haha. entah la eh. i can't wait to complete the project ar actually. Zzz.

Daniaty, Ina, Yan, Hendra, Aizad plus Me will be going to Arab Street this Sunday. haha. bagus ar. its been a long time since i went out. brr, mendak la siak! asyik kat rumah jer. 24hours, computer only. so the no life. haha. but going out requires money. poookkaaaiiii seyyyy .. )):

eh, siak ar. its exactly 1 week & 2 days since i start ______ _____ again. grr. cis, buat darah aku up jer berbual pasal die. macam siak kan? ala, sape kesah sey. wait till the day comes, & i'll be the happiest girl on earth. chey, ke per?? haha.

i felt feverish sak, really. my leg and palms felt veryyy cold. cannot afford to fall sick ley, i don't want to skip school. hahahaha. like someone said, make sure you don't fall sick. haha. betol betol. actually my motive of saying all this is, i wanted to sampaikan the message "kalau rase sejok, pakai JACKET!!". haha, OHHMYGAWD.

tkpela kan, cume kawan kawan aku jer paham meaning jacket. hurr, mapek sak.

@ 1:49 PM

why people keep blaming him huh? ): sot sey.

yesterday morning, my niece came. kecoh la kan. she doesn't want to come inside the house. bile aku panggil, die pekik. asal eh, hm. then i become restless, sebab ade orang belum msg lagi kn. sadded sak. then i went inside my room, dengar lagu kt handphone aku. keep listening to the same three song over and over again. it reminds me of him sey, sobx.

then someone knocked on my bedroom door, kuat nak mampos pulak tu. when i opened, nobody. geram jer tau. kacau steam ar, baru nak jiwang-jiwang. then when i wanted to close back the door, aku tertengok bawah then ternampak la anak sedare aku. ingatkan sape jer sey, sekali die yang ketok.

then petang, went to bugis. bile aku masok, the first thing that i saw was the t-shirt that i've been looking for. nak tahu, sebab kan that t-shirt got link with someone. haha. aku da gile nie. but eventually, i bought that t-shirt. its a must buy! lol.

tomorrow there's a science test. suey sey, da la satu bende pun aku tk paham. but im soo looking forward to go to school tomorrow. =D da la, aku malas nak type lagi.

p/s: i miss you. ): i keep staring at my phone, waiting for your messages.